reaction of the shit result

The second day after getting my shit result.. think i can calm down now. come to think of it, i'm just back to square one..but this time i more or less know where my weakness is already. That's the whole point of university study isn't it? at least it is what i'm looking for in uni life. now that i know where my weakness and strong areas are, i can tell myself i'm ready to embark on the second half of the university life. I may not have gotten very good result to secure my first job, but i'm sure sometime down the road i will perform to my potential level. ok.. should not waste too much time talking about the result liao...

got to submit my semicon scheme application form liao.. i have nothing to lose basically... will be submitting the application still.. hope i will get it.

i don't know why i like to make resolution for any occaision at anytime.. and now my resolution is to quit eating chocolates and potatoes chips. this addiction has the better of me for more than 20 yrs... think it's time to say good bye for now, knowing what it will do to my tummy and acne situation.. plsu one more resolution that shall not be revealed here... let's see how long my resolution can last this time..!

shit results

results are out. really horrible results comparing to what i have beening expecting to get. Before I can conveniently push the blame to competitive peers, i think i got to realize something is wrong here. I'm weak in calculations in the sense that i make careless mistakes easily and I'm not too confident about what I have understood in class(due to lack of sleep i guess). What i can do now is to make sure i get enough sleep next sem, and practice more(more than others who do 5-6 sets of paper for each module). half of my university journey is gone and I have realised where my weakness are. There shall be no more reasons for failure(as of now.. haha). This comes as a great setback realli especially when i was expecting good results, but I shall declare here to everyone and myself that this will not deter me from working even harder in the remaining 2 yrs of my fulfilling university life.

enign grad vs biz grad

I have heard many stories of how much the biz grad are earning in banks. I have a friend who went to do a private business degree(1 yr of bridge course and 3 yrs of uni course) without going through poly or JC. After getting his degree, he became a fund manager in a bank and earning more than 3k a month. His sister who did a NUS business degree is also a fund manager now and she's earning 10k a month. This kind of saddens me as to why am i studying so hard, so lifelessly in the freaking competitive engin sch with the freaking hardworking china man and scholars. Money is not all that matters in life but it does matter quite a lot. And this phenomenon demoralises me as it shows what i have been working so hard for is actually not that worthwhile in today's world. Now i understand why people said it's harder to get into Biz course nowadays.

i went to island creamery today!

Auntie Lim treated me to island creamery today. I enjoyed the ice cream a lot, but more so the sight of such a beauty i never see for half a year. Arts canteen was closed, so i have been restrained to engin area, my home and YMCA for this half a year. This is the first time since dunno how long i have that kind of special feeling when i see a girl. hai.. only if she is my friend...

i just realised my prediction of a 0.15 increase of cap was exactly what i achieved over the last sem. So i will hope for a 0.13 increase of cap this time round. let's see if my hope will come true.

next week i will be starting work. hope i will get to meet nice people and the job won't be too boring. the hr girl said i will be sitting in front of the computer for 90 percent of the time. let's hope it's a nice job. and pls pls pls, don't make me work in a all male environment again...... i'm scared i will become gay soon or later...shit... what am i talking...

NUS year 2 is over!

My last post was written right after my exam for sem1. No post at all in between. Somemore I no longer give tuition. this shows how busy i have been for the past 4 months. stupid mini1,2,3,4... tests, catching up with lectures, lindi hop. I don't know if this is considered fulfilling or mere being busy. staying back to do work in library literally on every day basis, I don't know my life should be considered lifeless or what. ok, enough grumbling.....

I have put in more than ever(like what i will always say after each exam) time and effort into the preparation for this exam. Really hope it bear the fruit i truely deserve. FNA, 2007, 2011 should be fine. Hope my cap will get some lifting again this time.

3 months holiday has started, and i feel so lost.... not knowing what to do(actually i have to apply for part time job..), my friends are either doing special sem or VIP.. maybe i should take some time to reflect abt this sem and think of what i really want to achieve in NUS.

argh... should i specialize in semicon? should i focus more on study or still keep up with my cca commitment?.......